Seventeen

feb 22, 2025

Vishnu Loquette

current mood: happy

currently eating: barritas

currrently drinking: coke

listening to: pomegranate trees in july - nym

quote: "im a psycho, psycho teddy!!!"

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awaken yourself

and be your true mind

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hello. 

i recently turned seventeen.

its been such an interesting experience, because i haven't felt the impact of age until this one. im getting older man...

soon i will be eighteen and then ur no longer a kid in the big eye of the law.

my sister and i went to the beach late at night to celebrate, and i watched the waves and reflected on my life. i remember i used to yearn to go back to the times when i was happy. i had friends, i had love. and i lacked sentience. but on the beach, looking at the night sky and the splashes of the waves, i finally stopped. i accept myself. things happen, life changes. i wouldn't change a thing. 

its these things which created the person who i am today. and i'd rather be who am i now more than anything. even throughout all the hardships. and for once i can say that i've regained my happiness. i can smile again. im going to start making my life better than it has ever been. im going to make things right. im gonna see my old friend, even though right now is very lonely. it only pushes me to do even better. im going to do better with myself.

im also going to dedicate myself to making my old friend happier, ill find a way. i want to make people smile, because ive spent a long time not doing that. i can't wait to see them, i wonder what will happen. i continued to think. and my final thoughts were, im glad this all happened. im happy i got this second chance at life. im glad the butterfly landed on me that day. and as i looked at the waves, the next day struck and it was then my birthday. 

a couple days later my family threw a party and my cousins came over, it was really fun. we watched surfs up and ate cake. and i got a new laptop and some beanie babies for my collection!!

thats all, see you. :]

 

yours truly,

vishnu loquette.

   

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Communion 

feb 15, 2025

Vishnu Loquette

current mood: decent

currently eating: nothing at the moment

currrently drinking: blue icee in a cool emo cup

listening to: brighter side - SaGa

quote: "oops....you caught me being a mentor!!"

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awaken yourself

and be your true mind

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what the hell is up yo-yos

yesterday was my cousins birthday.

nothing else..........

ALSO I MET MICKEY MOUSE!!!!!!!!!

my siblings and i went to downtown disney and we went to the hotel area,

i feel like we were in some place we weren't supposed to be cause there were a bunch of ballerinas everywhere and then there were multiple stages around us. nevertheless i regret nothing.

cause all of the sudden from the other side of the hallway im at i see mickey and and minnie walking towards us wearing suits. it was crazy too cause it was us and only a couple of people. and he was WALKING RIGHT TOWARDS ME. i actually dropped my wetzels pretzels (best food ever) bag on the floor and quickly had to pick it up. and when i look up mickey locks eyes with me and does a little point at me and walks away. and in my head im like "MICKEY-SANNNNNNNNNNN :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD"

im still very honored to meet the legendary mouse himself.

also i saw this mask they had displayed. kinda creepy but cool. 

i believe its from ye olden times where these used to be the costumes they used for the mascots.

aside from that, i may be going to church school. so that will be something. oh and im doing more stuff for the site. keep your eyes peeled. very peeled. like a banana... very banana......

school was lame cause i saw all the wack ass couples fucking petting each other or some weird shit. how dare they be happy. not on my watch....

jk idc about valentines. i just like to eat all the candy. 

though v-day always reminds me of my old love...

what a time that was.

my birthday is coming up in a few days, its on the 18th. looking forward to that. my birthday wish for yall to read my epic blog. jkjkjk. my cousins will be coming over to celebrate on friday, so its party time.

ok now shoo, i have much important business to attend to.

these candies wont eat themselves.

 

yours truly,

vishnu loquette.

   

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Je Suis Le Vent

feb 3, 2025

Vishnu Loquette

current mood: motivated

currently eating: goldfish

currrently drinking: coke in a duck cup

listening to: rocket - wfanfc

quote: "theres so much we could do if i wasn't dead."

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when i close my eyes

i can live any life i want.

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hello. 

its me again. 

life is hard. but im doing well. ive made some new friends which is good.

amuro (saw pigs fly) and pasta (worlds only hockey player) i love yall so much.

i feel like that penguin picture.. things get tough but i march on. i haven't been attending my classes because i really dont like going to school. this school is so lame.. but ive been doing the work, trying not to be as lazy as i was. i see many people around me with their friends and having fun and it does feel a little sad at times, but not as much it used to. you see, as of right now im very focused.

why? you may ask. well, by the tail-end of this year. im gonna see an old friend.

lets call them... "g.v"

and i also want to see another friend... :)

thats why im trying to focus more on myself and do well-ish in school.

and also why i really stopped caring about stuff and people at this current school. 

i won't be here for much longer, so currently im devising plans. 

ive also been getting more religious as of late. 

my mom is taking me to church on sunday. im willing to keep an open mind.

i don't know if god is real or not.. and its always been a struggle for me to believe or deny. 

but this time, im willing to listen.

also a story,

i went to the store with my sister, and outside in the parking lot i saw these kids gathered playing music.

they were all punk-type and they were all moshing and screaming. the vocals were shit not gonna lie but for some reason it resonated with me. it was such a cool way of self expression. to show who you really are. 

now im curious...

that is all for now. see you.

yours truly,

vishnu loquette.

   

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Infirmary

jan 7, 2025

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Vishnu Loquette

current mood: chillish

currently eating: goldfish

currrently drinking: coke

listening to: sorry - hodgy beats

quote: "children are strange and foreign to me, i never really was one."

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infirmary

where the ill reside

the last room before death

the other students seem to be okay

walking and talking

here i lie

drenched in agony

my body is fight to kill

and save me

while my mind is the mediator

my eyes are heavy

a vacant body

with a mind dreaming

of a better tommorow

as the schreeches of a bell

jolt me back to reality

yet i wasn't healed

for i have another illness

that has no cure.

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hello again.

i went to school yesterday. that was quite a time.

as for my school life, its quite dead. nothing really happens. i don't really know anyone.

i threw up my second period though.

i was at my desk and i was kinda bored so i wanted to read a couple pages of the new book i got.

well a couple of pages in and then my vision starts to get all weird, like when you get up way too fast.

and then i feel like i can't breathe, so i ask the teacher to go to the office to sit down. he writes me up and i quickly get out.

but all of a sudden my body pulls me to the trash can nearby and i start vomiting.

and then i start vomiting AGAIN on my way to the office.

some lady nearby saw it all and took me to the nurses office.

then i collapsed onto the infirmary bed.

it turns out my teacher also saw it all too, as later he came to visit me.

weird, i had always that he was kind of a jerk. but after all this maybe he's not so bad after all.

i also overheard some kid walk by and say "oh so thats why that foo isn't in 3rd." "that kid is in my 3rd period." the nurse guy didn't seem to care.

come to think of it, he really didn't care about much. he was pretty checked out. anyway yeah. i was there on the bed.

i came up with that poem you saw earlier as i laid there.

i must have been in some weird state as next thing i know i have to get up and go to lunch.

so that was something...

today i got to stay home, hooray!!! ill see what i do. i might play my wii or something.. ive been getting really into modding again recently. and i also really want to install gentoo again... but alas no time for that. argghh!!!

we should have another school break, just saying...

 

yours truly,

vishnu loquette.

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Awakening 

jan 1, 2025

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Vishnu Loquette

current mood: angelic

currently eating: nothing at the moment

currrently drinking: coke

listening to: join me in death 1998 - him

quote: "i am a prosthetic angel."

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i am a prosthetic angel.

my wings are torn,

by the claws of my battles.

i have fallen,

my scars burn.

i take this feather,

to repair myself.

an artifical angel,

seeking to become true.

guided by the wings of this new world.

that take me to the peaceland.

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hello. im alexei.

im a teenager who loves poetry. and stuff.

yeah, im no good at introductions. but i think you get the point. anyway.

today feels like the first day of my life. i know that may seem odd to say, but i truly feel it now.

all my life, i felt like i was waiting for something. and now i feel ive reached it.

but i didn't know happiness was so lonely.

ive started a journal both here and in real life to mark down my life, and people i meet. and things that happen.

i have always been looking at peoples lives, and seeing what they do. peoples stories rlly facinate me.

so its odd finally trying to live my own. nobody ever gives you a guide book on how to "live".

it seems we are just expected to figure it out ourselves...

i cant think of anything else to write.

later.

 

yours truly,

vishnu loquette. 

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